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Sometimes a body makes a terrible choice
A heart may never understand.
A womb opens too early
Or closes far too long.
You were the former.
From the moment I saw the pregnancy test
I knew you were my son,
Just as I knew your sister
Was my baby girl
The moment of her ultrasound.
How, I don’t know
But I found certainty
Amidst the mystery
Of birth and
Life.
But something went awry.
When, why?
I don’t know
And so I don’t know you.
If you are in heaven
Born into a form
Better suited for eternity rather than earth
You are eleven,
(Are there birthdays in heaven?)
Are you
Playing heaven ball,
Climbing heaven trees,
Riding heaven bikes,
Learning guitar?
